A very long time...
So...i completely forgot i had this blogger account. I decided to track it down again after a friend of mine announced he had a blog. I remember, back in the day, when all my friends had blogs. It was a craze. He never had one, until now. I read it, remembered i had one and finally tracked it down through yet another friends account. (He had a weblink to mine.)
I haven't blogged since halway through 2006 and now it's ALMOST 2009. I can say, since i stopped using this account, that my happy, care-free life has had some very drastic twists and turns of late...
2007 was supposed to be my greatest year, it was the year i went with some of my closest friends to Melbourne, feeling rather independant, and the year i was to turn 21. I did do both those things but the year was by far the worst in my life so far. My childhood dog died (i'd had her since i was in year two, and even more devastating, I lost my gorgeous, lovely, kind spirited father to a disgusting horrible disease which is all too common amongst us...cancer. I have never EVER felt a pain like that in my life, and i still hate myself for not being able to get to him before he passed. I worked for him too, a family business, running into the third generation. It had to be shut down. I lost my job too. I was affected badly, very badly, by these happenings and completely withdrew from the world causing rifts in life long friendships. I never meant to hurt anyone but didn't know how else to cope. My family is healing. Very, very slowly, but we are healing. There will never be a day i don't think about my Dad though. RIP Daddy, love you so much.
A year later, he is still missed as much as ever. Life has had some unexpected good surprises too. My sister got engaged and is expecting a baby in 7 weeks. My Aunty and her long time boyfriend got married, my cousin and his girlfriend got married in a surprise ceremony on what would have been my dad's birthday and i have made plenty of new friends and am trying to rebuild the relationships with my old ones as i start to come out of my depression. I have yet another new car (it's like a running tradition with me to upgrade constantly, i inherited it from my father.) and i have recently enjoyed a 5 week long backpacking holiday in the UK with another of my sisters which seemed to really put me on the right track to getting my life back together. I'm still out of a job although i had another one briefley and have also done a course but suffered a breakdown so i took time off.
To tell the truth i don't really expect anyone to read it, but i used to blog on myspace all the time and it was one of the ways i could release my thoughts and feelings without worrying about what people thought. I think i'll start again, it's good for me.
I'm currently writing down details of my UK trip, so once i've finished i'll post it on here.
A very shortened update of the past two years of my life but all i can be bothered posting for now.
-Schmanica.
I haven't blogged since halway through 2006 and now it's ALMOST 2009. I can say, since i stopped using this account, that my happy, care-free life has had some very drastic twists and turns of late...
2007 was supposed to be my greatest year, it was the year i went with some of my closest friends to Melbourne, feeling rather independant, and the year i was to turn 21. I did do both those things but the year was by far the worst in my life so far. My childhood dog died (i'd had her since i was in year two, and even more devastating, I lost my gorgeous, lovely, kind spirited father to a disgusting horrible disease which is all too common amongst us...cancer. I have never EVER felt a pain like that in my life, and i still hate myself for not being able to get to him before he passed. I worked for him too, a family business, running into the third generation. It had to be shut down. I lost my job too. I was affected badly, very badly, by these happenings and completely withdrew from the world causing rifts in life long friendships. I never meant to hurt anyone but didn't know how else to cope. My family is healing. Very, very slowly, but we are healing. There will never be a day i don't think about my Dad though. RIP Daddy, love you so much.
A year later, he is still missed as much as ever. Life has had some unexpected good surprises too. My sister got engaged and is expecting a baby in 7 weeks. My Aunty and her long time boyfriend got married, my cousin and his girlfriend got married in a surprise ceremony on what would have been my dad's birthday and i have made plenty of new friends and am trying to rebuild the relationships with my old ones as i start to come out of my depression. I have yet another new car (it's like a running tradition with me to upgrade constantly, i inherited it from my father.) and i have recently enjoyed a 5 week long backpacking holiday in the UK with another of my sisters which seemed to really put me on the right track to getting my life back together. I'm still out of a job although i had another one briefley and have also done a course but suffered a breakdown so i took time off.
To tell the truth i don't really expect anyone to read it, but i used to blog on myspace all the time and it was one of the ways i could release my thoughts and feelings without worrying about what people thought. I think i'll start again, it's good for me.
I'm currently writing down details of my UK trip, so once i've finished i'll post it on here.
A very shortened update of the past two years of my life but all i can be bothered posting for now.
-Schmanica.
posted by SCHMaNiCa at 1:02 pm
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