GaH aND Poo!!!

Sometimes i wish i had kept my identity a secret from this blog so i could write about things and nobody would know what i'm goin on about and i'd be able to unload all my crap without hurting anyone's feelings and nobody would understand who im talking about. Make sense? Lol.
I'm not sure whats going on with me lately but i definately don't feel like myself. I feel like i'm being attacked from people who are supposed to be my friends. Sometimes i know i'm over-reacting and sometimes i know that there is something to worry about.
I have had things going round in my head for years now. There's been one major problem that keeps circling and i have no way of getting rid of it and even if i talk about it it doesn't help. It is seriously starting to make me insane. I never used to worry about such a thing...
I realise i'm not making much sense, but i'm just looking for a way to express my feelings but not give away too much at the same time. That probably doesn't make sense either.
Recently i made the most biggest mistakes of my life so far and usually i don't regret mistakes, i learn from them. This one, however, is definately a regrettable one. I hate myself for it.
I love every single one of my friends with my whole heart and i would seriously die for any one of them and i wouldn't be the same without them but recently i feel like i'm a hindrance to them. I keep thinking how much easier it would be for me to leave for melbourne like i promised myself i would one day and start over. I guess thats running away from the problem...i really don't know what to make of my thoughts anymore.
I'll prolly look back on this blog in a week or so and laugh at myself...i hope lol.
I just wish that someties life wasn't so complicated. I wonder why it is?

And that is the question on everybodys lips.